Right now im simply using the net to brush up on my mathematical language. Ive got to know “what all these cute lil symbols mean teehee”. its a must for every branch of science and for finance. Very soon Ill be starting up a business with my partner. We will make this work!
During my study of cross cultural psychology, specifically on white and black american psychologies, I have found many disheartening truths. One of the most pressing issues I’ve discovered today is the lack of active communication between races. There is undeniably racial tension present in our society today, and an undeniable racial disparity. This racialized society, in my honest opinion, comes not from any sinister place but an overwhelming cultural miscommunication.
Now, I apologize for concerning you all about my mental stability. My mental distress was not an expression of my psychic fragility, but merely a testament to my dedication. I have felt enraged (and frightened) by the problems of racial (gender, disable, etc) disparities, and have had many people try to convince me that the cause was lost. I refuse to believe that people cannot be integrated. I refuse to believe that we cannot communicate and learn from each other as a society. I refuse to believe that injustice will forever be underlying American culture. I have deep issues with individualism, and maintain that it is fundamentally flawed. We will never learn of a person’s true struggle if we insist that their problems are best dealt with alone. We will never understand a person’s true pain if we do not lend them a caring ear. These should be the primary concerns of policy. I have learned that through my family, through my research, through my collective, and through God; it is my intention to teach it. To maintain that the problems are not present in society today (even at Purchase!), to not understand that we perpetuate our own social constructs, or to be apprehensive to address these issues together, will drive anyone like me absolutely insane.
I will finish my classes, to the best of my ability. I hope that we can discuss the places I need to make up. I have spoken with Qui Qui and truly listened to her concerns. She is perceived often times as “the bad guy”, but her place within policy is a binding one. I’m not sure if I mentioned this earlier, but I have no issue with the individual players in our social/educational system. My concern is that the system is poorly informed. I will come back next semester, to address these concerns, and I would like to have a discussion with someone about my options as far as changing my major (BALA, Liberal Studies, sociology, Etc).
Some of my deepest concerns in this society is the infantilization, elitism, and ageism. Although I have no degrees, or any written insight, I am a legal adult (whatever that means), and I hope people understand that I can function as such. I’ve been studying social psychology since I was 12 years old, and yes 12 year olds may have insight! I haven’t received any honorary degrees yet (or published any literature!), because I haven’t the funds, time, or the social/cultural capital. The only thing I need to make an informed decision is be informed. I do not feel comfortable being escorted until I’m 30. I am infuriated when I feel like I am not being entertained like a fully functioning person. It traumatizes me when it is a person who is not of color. I am convinced that infatantilization is why many college students (and “adults”) have drug and alcohol problems.
I do not place blame on anyone, and I understand that you may all be too busy to fully digest the content of this email, but I hope that we can all learn from this social experiment. I had to understand which one of my deeply felt anxieties were true. I had to learn if white people/the system really were trying to oppress me. I had to learn if my hypotheses on racial miscommunication, racial mistrust, and race relation apprehension, were the true key players in the perpetuation of post-slavery syndromes (and perpetuation of racial disparities). After having loudly alerted everyone of my concerns and seeing a true dedication to my continued success, I am mentally comforted by your love.
I am certainly an advocate for humanism and positive psychology. I am an advocate for collectivism. I am an advocate for cross cultural studies and understanding. I believe that we can live integrated. I believe that we can fix these problems. I maintain that there are still problems that must be dealt with compassionately, collectively. I hope that with this email I have comforted you all. I hope that you learn of my capacity as an adult. I hope that we can all reevaluate our snap judgments about each other. I hope that you all read Blink by Malcolm Gladwell, or all of his books. I hope we are all aware of our individual psychologies and past histories. I hope we reread Freud (psychic determinism)! I hope that you live the truths you know. I embody the truths I believe, and am an activist through and through. I want to live a life worth telling, and I want to change the world in the process. God leads the way, and he hasn’t let me down yet!
Thank you all,
I hope this can be my senior project!